Hey you all - been a long time since I blogged - am indeed having a 'blast' in this town thank you...hope all other mumbaikars are fine & safe...

I really dont want to ramble on about who dunnits and more such conspiracy theories....am sure we have heard enough of them - after seeing the way media reacted to the blasts I somehow have a vague fear in my underbelly that there is a news editor who jumps in glee everytime there is a crisis - one man's sorrow is big business for everyone...if ratings were given to TV programs, most of what we saw on tuesday should have been banned, thanks to the amount of gore on splendid display....

To me the biggest impact of these events is the paranoia gripping the city - I was in the first class compartment yesterday with other women returning from office - there was an (ahem!) 'unidentified' bag in the luggage shelf and there we all went our eyes widening with fear and looking suspiciously at each other - One girl just asked whose it was and an eerie silence filled up the compartment - A proper cool chick ( with shocking pick jacket et all) came running from the other end , picked the bag and said to all of us 'cool it guys its mine'....there was a palpable relief in everyones faces....And suddenly the journey started breathing life again...

Me, a mute spectator to the event decided that Am just being 'mute' - I mean here I was all my life believing that I am 'idealistic' and I have something to say on anything that concerns the nation - But the first thing I did after the blasts was to call up my husband, enquire for his safety and stay put at office - the blast sites were just 2 Kms away - and loads of hands & blood were needed...My husband calls it 'denial'...may be - but more honestly could have also been selfishness - all this so called resillience from Mumbaikars is plain 'collective denials' according to me...If it didnt happen to me, it didnt happen to anyone is the attitude...

Or may be I am just measuring the world in my colours...but heck, right now the world just seems to be black...!

Was reading a column from Washington post, which said that 'India has been too patient' with Pakistan - another column says ' we are bearing the terrorist attacks as stoically as we bore the foreign invasions'....As a nation are we timid???

My theory is that this is largely the effect of the religion of the majority Hinduism - sorry for getting philospohical here - but the main teaching from bhagwat Gita - is to Just do ones own duty and not bother about the result' we have the right to follow only our own Dharma and not influence what others do.... - a far cry from the 'hand for hand' and 'eye for an eye' prophesicing....

Well of course, all these3 scriptures in any religion are open for interpretation thats why we have fundementalism is present in all religions...

Would like to recollect what I read when 9/11 happened....

'Terrorism really has no religion, it stems from fundemantalism of any nature and it affects anyone irrespective of religion...'

Nearly 20% of the people dead in the blasts are muslims.....

we can only say ' ishwara allah tere naam - SABKO shanmathi de bhagwan'.....